In the End

I started the day off with defeat. It has been a culmination of lack of sleep, illness, isolation from friends and fellowship, etc., etc. I realized, after writing an e-mail to a friend, that I've not been to church in a month (because of illness and other things). I've not been to Bible study, MOPS only met once last month, I've not been able to enjoy my basement peeps and in general I've been a homebody.

That's enough to make anyone buckle.

I am happy to report that although I wanted to gorge myself on the remaining birthday cake or buy a Diet Coke (thanks to the stomach flu, I've been free from Diet Coke for 3 days). I wanted to sit on the couch, play my farm game (why is it always a farm game), veg out, zone out and give up.

Thankfully, the encouraging words, texts, emails and Facebook posts served as a cushion for me to fall on. I didn't fall on my butt, I didn't fail. The words lifted my spirits just enough to make it possible for me to do opposite of what I wanted.

I spent half an hour doing Dance Party on the Wii this morning. I am much less of a graceful dancer than I thought I was. I will admit that I look pretty ridiculous, but I didn't let lack of coordination stop me. I did my best and hacked and wheezed through half an hour.

Bekah had dance class today. Mondays are tricky because of this. I usually get her home from dance class, get Doug down for a nap, put a movie in and doze on the couch. Today, the driveway needed shovelling. So I gathered all of my reserves, bundled up my two older children and shoveled the entire thing. (Now, truth be told, I did doze a bit after that was done--my eyes simply wouldn't stay open.)

I am looking expectantly at tomorrow; the organizer I hired is coming over for the first time. We are going to start the arduous process of making the house not sterile and antiseptic but managable and welcoming. I am optimistic that, over the next few months, I will be able to work with her to come to enjoy being in the house.

So there you go. Just another day on the rollercoaster of life. Now I intend to spend some time in the Lazy River. Peace and tidings!