Avalanche

I have been very honest and open about my family's struggle to stay in our home. It has been a hard-fought battle.

About a month and a half ago, we got word that we were approved for a program called Illinois Hardest Hit. It would bring us current on our mortgage. It wouldn't solve all of our problems, but it made us a little secure.

We were told it would take a while to get everything resolved. We were peaceful because we took our acceptance into the program as a sign from God that we were supposed to stay here.

As I said, it wouldn't solve the ongoing issue of making monthly mortgage payments. That has been a concern, but we took solace in the victory.

Today, I was ecstatic to spend time with my dad. We are preparing for Thanksgiving tomorrow and are excited to spend time together.

When I got home, Brian was on the phone. Unfortunately, we hit a snag. There is a shortage between the max of what Illinois Hardest Hit can pay and what we have in escrow.

I am not sure what that amount is. I am not sure if Wells Fargo is going to work with us to resolve it. And now, instead of feeling peaceful going into tomorrow, my heart is unsettled.

I feel foolish, to an extent. I have she'd a lot of tears about a house. I have she'd a lot of tears for what is, in essence, a collection of lumber and fixtures and fairly worn-out furniture. I know I shouldn't shed these tears. It is just a thing. It is not where my treasure lies.

But I brought my kids home from the hospital here. I have made memories here. I have cried, rejoiced, mourned, created here.

I hate to ask anything of my readers. I want all of you to enjoy your Thanksgiving. If its not too much trouble, though, can you pray for my family's future? Can you pray peace for our hearts? Can you ask our sovereign God to work out this situation for His glory?

It is just a house, it's not a home. Maybe God wants us to live somewhere else. Maybe God wants us to make memories in another collection of lumber, fixtures and worn-out furniture. Please pray that God would give us peace and guidance. I would rather live in peace where he wants us to be than in conflict where we shouldn't be.

Please take a minute to pray for us. Thanks for indulging my request. I hope you are all able to enjoy your Thanksgiving as you see fit.