I have nine minutes before Conan O'Brien starts his monologue. I am going to be brief and to the point. I am exhausted! I started working with a personal trainer a few weeks ago. I have known her for quite some time (10+ years), but we lost touch with each other for a few years in there.
Enter Facebook and it allowed us to reconnect. I was also pleased to see that she had become a personal trainer. Having known her for a while I knew she had a passion for fitness and for helping people. Not having seen her in person for a while, I was curious to see how she had transformed.
Mind you, in my opinion she was at a healthy weight the last time I saw her. Her appearance, though, had changed dramatically. When I saw her at my assessment in December, she looked improved but not even really physically. There was more tone to her muscles but really she seemed calm and sure of herself.
She's always been hilarious and relatable, so I knew that working with her was going to be awesome. Obviously, I am still far away from where I want to be. I am doing my best to break up the 100 pounds I have left to lose into more manageable segments. 100 seems like such a big number but I was struggling to make it past the next 10-pound mark.
I have to say, I am excited to work with Kate not because of how I want to look physically but because of how I want to feel mentally. I have been thin before and I was a mess. I was insecure, picked on myself all the time and never felt settled. I would be happy to lose only 90 pounds if I could feel the way Kate looks. I know it seems goofy, to go to a trainer because she seems so peaceful, but that's what it is. I want to be healthy but not at the expense of my mental health.
Today I had a victory. Kate typed up a circuit for me. It was tough to do when I saw her Saturday. I knew it would be tough to do at home, with three little people "helping" me. My goal was to complete the circuit twice.
I'm happy to report that I did just that. I'm happier still that I didn't do it perfectly (I had to attend to requests for help between most exercises) but I didn't dwell on how quickly I did it. I chose to be happy that I completed it all, full reps. It was a good thing.
I'm excited to keep working with Kate. If I get brave, I'll post some before and after pics. Tomorrow morning is my weekly weigh-in. I'm a bit nervous as I tend to gain every third week or so, but I'm going to rest in knowing I did a lot of things right this week.
Oops, I hear Conan's band playing him in. Gotta go.
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